influxoflife

4.10am

2005-08-22T04:11:00.000-07:00

HERE I AM( @ 4AM ) TYPING MY LIFE AWAY ...

rambles on & on

2005-08-13T00:15:00.000-07:00

it's been a while since i met her ..it kinda saddens me to see her plight now..a familiar one which i cld relate to a few years back.. but i was a little lucklier..being predominantly occupied with school at tt period of time seem to soften the blow...at least things have been rather peaceful nowadays at home..albeit being a little quiet.i admire her courage for being able to cope with the adversity facing her den again the rage in her is too overwhelming...her ability to reflect what's going on seem so vivid, so much that most ppl was able to relate to her plight..it makes me ponder about the future..about family...about life...are portraits of happy families depicted in billboards so hard to achieve?it makes me wonder whether traditional family values still exist in today's society...den again the impact of globalisation is so overwhelming as it erodes the core family values away, in such a quiet manner..if given a choice, i wld hv rather stayed in the past..d climb for monetary values gets into me at times....when i stroll along the long stretch of hugemongous houses, i wonder what the future holds for me..however the images of lonely children in there frightens me...it's all because of the society i supposed....that's y i know that i have to hold myself back ..to stop thinking bout what i want...instead think of what i already have...

on a different note,

things haven been going smoothly at home...haven been talking to my mum at home...it's not as though i had a huge quarrel with her or something..it's just her way of handling that stupid idiotic bastard that irritates me...so much that i gave up squabbling instead...the stuffs in school are already wearing me out that i don't even speak more than 5 sentences at home...it's just too tiring to open my mouth after a long day in school...frankly speaking i really can't wait for the semester to end...so that i can retreat to somewhere for a short break...well..it's just the time of the year.

[ play a piece for me, a slow one, could you? ]

minute maid.my choice

2005-08-06T02:06:00.000-07:00

i'm addicted.addicted to minute maid..haha..i thought my mum's kinda weird because which mum wld pass her daughter a bottle of minute maid's limeade in the weeeee hours?it's 1.34am alr btw...weird mum. But then again, i think i'm lucky to hv her as my mum, somebody whom i can converse to anytime. I'm blessed to hv her because she's the kinda mum who will try to provide her children everything that she can give.Relationship with her during the early teenage years was perhaps the toughest. Being the eldest, i had to (by every mama's logic), set a good example for my bro. I obviously think i did but it's just that my bro didn't receive it well tt's all.That bastard ought to be left out in the streets. I think my mum's too soft, being able to relent to him gave him more courage to become even more defiant. He didn;t even apologise when he lost my mp3 player together with his bag.FUCK!anyway i will definitely try all means to make him pay back!i think i wld or perhaps my family would be better off without him in the household....sigh..i've lost my cool...but dis happens when u hv such a member in the family.

Den again, school's been busy nowadays, been strapped with loads & loads of neverending submissions..sigh..but i shall persist till the end...okie dok...getting ready for tuition soon..i'm speechless alr..too tired...night.

[where's the silence that we used to enjoy]

life is just a dream that everybody chase after.

2005-07-09T23:43:00.000-07:00

how true is that?

it's a saturday nite...n here i am yes..again..on a sat nite....argh....i'm always in a dilema when it comes to weekends.. aren't we supposed to let our hairs down and enjoy? *toot* i beg to differ.. that's why i'm here.. looking at my past entries..i realised that i haven;t been out on a sat nite...i'm a mummy's gal...haha...well..i think i need that "rest" badly after a long hectic week in sch...my fellow admers will definitely agree with moi..rite gals? *raises hand*** especially the last one...damn...i've been sleeping at 4/5 am almost everydae....damn...despite having to stay up late, i guess everything went rather smoothly .... but i'm forgoing all my appointments n decided i shd stay home to compose myself for the next round... next week's d hols btw...although it seems fairly peaceful without having any lecturers to call us back but my to-d0-list had already been planned...i hv to be back in sch for draping...retail...but i think i'm gonna hv my share of fun...but damn i wun be back for harry potter;s launch coz something cropped us...i'm so gonna miss working there with the peeps there..n i think they wun wan to take me back anymore..haha...tt's all for now...gonna catch my book n do some reading b4 heading off to bed...wat a peaceful saturday... =)

[dream a little dream]

2005-07-09T08:45:00.000-07:00

view from rm

2005-07-09T08:44:00.000-07:00

waltzing

2005-07-09T08:42:00.000-07:00

leaves

2005-07-09T08:41:00.000-07:00

un-noticed beauty

2005-07-09T08:39:00.000-07:00

a l t i t u d e

tribute.

2005-07-04T01:43:00.000-07:00

"maybe it was hard for you to turn back
because u didn't want to remember the sadness in our eyes"

9 years, our 9 years of friendship
the bond that we've formed can never be found on anybody else
the memories that we've shared will never be able to fill the space here
throughout these years, i guess we've became part & parcel of each other's lives
although you are not the expressive sort
but i know you care for every of your friend deep down inside your heart
am i right, my friend?
you always seem so aloof
taking everything in your own stride
but i know that you're the greatest friend around
without you being here with us for the next 2 years,
things will never be the same again
like you said,
we will never know what the future holds for us
the course of our lives may change,
we will eventually make new friends & all
but i just wanna say that,
the only thing that will never change,
is our friendship.

thank you for being here to share my ups and downs...

waiting for you, ur everdearest jobi.

daily Ramblings..

2005-06-12T01:55:00.000-07:00

it's saturday...& i'm home again...i don't know what's gotten into me nowadays...going out on sat doesn't seems to appeal to me anymore...firstly i think it's because of school..was jampacked with 2 assignments on the first week of sch...geez..i'm feeling a lil' tired now...not physically but mentally tired...i tink it's also coz of the tense situation at home ..mum has been busy lately coz of the new shop..dad's been grumbling a lot nowadays..my bro?forget it!shan't waste my breathe on him...sometimes i feel like i'm the only child...somehow i feel obligated to help my parents out at home...to accompany my poor lil' dog...on the other hand..i feel tt i need a breather..badly...but somehow i just couldn't...i think i mite have to reshuffle my life a lil'...i.e. helping out at the shop/home...dealing with assignments..den again..mum just mentioned to me abt dropping d keyboard classes so tt i can help her on fri...argh..is it just me?i'm feeling stressed...anyway, on a happier note, i bought my dad a father's day prezzy tdy..it's an air supply's album...been wanting to get for him coz he likes them...n me too!i love air supply..hope he likes it too...been cracking my brains on what to get for him & now i'm finally done...was at cd rama dis afternoon..gosh..i swear i was so tempted to get so many cds....like those by corinne may, gorillaz, train, bee gee....bla bla bla...but d one by corinne may is at the top of my list...keke..tt's all for tdy......hope my week will be betterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........

[i'm hooked to ya,berry]

TV addict.

2005-06-06T02:19:00.000-07:00

i'm a tv addict. Only for tdy since i don't get much chance to be one.. Been sitting in front of the television set since i woke up..prolly from 1+ till bout 11... minus the vacumming, loitering around my room, disturbing dino... gosh..i tink i spend more than 8 hours on tv tdy..there wasn;t even any nice shows tdy... like my dad, i've taken a liking for CNA channel news asia..(my dad even attempted to watch CNN;no jokes) now he's progressed to the taiwanese news channel but nevertheless he still a loyal fan of animal planet,national geog,discovery ch,ESPN(daily)...weird combi i tawt..he's nv a fan of our local tv channel though... he hates watching them in fact, except for the news..haha..so that's my dad...ok' i've digressed from the topic of tv to my dad...anyway i think i'm mentally tired tdy coz of the late nite yest at liquidrm..we had helluva fun yest..the music was f-a-n-t-a-s-t-i-c.... DJ ko-flow was spinning yest along with another guy n an ang moh gal (DJ kelly) i supposed...actually when i saw his name at the entrance, i was a little skeptical about the music inside..it was r&b last nite btw..nonetheless he's quite good actually..i tink his talent mite be overshadowed by the dreary performance with the much acclaimed beatboxer*lol* darny..geez..anyway the crowd was good as well.. a couple of drinks were on house thanks to vic n aiwei...haha.. had a slow start yest though for the first part of d nite coz i was practically standing there still wearing tt semi-formal dress which i wore to the dinner func...*toot toot* i mean which idiot would wear a semi-formal dress coupled with a pair of demure white heels, carrying an evening bag to a R&B nite... *sigh* anyway i think alcohol definitely had its effect on all of us at the later part.. nice place i must sae..one of the best clubbing experiences i've had to date... i think i mite have to start on my report for tage now..it's supposed to be due on wed & i haven started a bit..guess i'm too stressed out after submitting two projects on the 2nd week of sch..oh well..at least it's better than sitting in the office mutilating samples garments.. speaking of which...i wonder when is polo ever going to send me my paycheck..i'm going broke...okie dok den..tt's all for now...oyasumi nasai!

OPPS!!! just a little note

UNEXPECTED WILL BE PERFORMING AT THE ESPLANADE NEXT TUE AT 7.30PM FOLLOWED BY E.I.C ON THE FOLLOWING DAY, SAME TIME...INTERESTED FRIENDS, PLS DROP ME A LINE,SEND ME A MSG ASAP..DEN PROLLY WE CAN MEET UP & GO TOGETHER OR SOMETHING?ON THE OTHER HAND, BAY BEATS IS FINALLY COMING..IT'S ON THE 15TH-17TH JULY...CAN;T WAIT..

[ drifting away; drifts drifts ]
jobi.

i'm still up & awake

2005-06-04T01:54:00.000-07:00

i wonder why am i still up at this hour.... maybe i miss blogging too much.. haha... i think i should be snuggling up in bed at this unearthly hour.. it's only 1.17am but hey most ppl sleep early rite?well except for my fellow admers & miss choong i suppose... *lol* anyway i think i'm gonna hv a long dae tmr...i'm anticipating alr... i'll hv to wake up n get to sch by 9 to attend some lame talk regarding global issues...luckily i hv sarah for company if not i think i'm gonna die there without anyone knowing...den later in d dae, i'll hv to attend another dinner function which i hope i cld avoid but unfortunately..i can't..i hate to be decked in skirts and heels & having to act demure in front of my dad's frens... this time round i wun hv angeline for company... well, i think i'll just have to keep my mouth shut and continue smiling till the evening ends..*toot toot*oooo...guess wat..my "ah beng" bro finally got himself a ..ahem..i'm considering whether shd i state that "ah beng" shirt as a decent piece...but then it's still an "AH BENG" shirt, to think that the shirt was from topman...i rather he borrow shirts from my dad..well at least they r decent...haha...(my dad & mum r in my rm now...poor dino..they r currently teaching her d newest trick that is to imitate miss liang po po's *shang nao jing* ahahhaa...my dad just commented if she could really do that, he would bring her to the circus..but den again i tink my mum's a great teacher!)...okie dok..i'm outta here...gonna head for the bed..night night (",)

[ give me a reason to act the way i am ]

2005-06-03T10:52:00.000-07:00

smilez..u;'re on candid camera..

d impassive.

2005-05-16T00:24:00.000-07:00

i'm feeling feverish rite now
i think it's because of d darn weather
& last but not least,
the onset of d virus at harbour front

i think i'm a tad quieter nowadays
i think it's because of my throat
no, probably not
probably because i needed to find that peace in me

[expressionless]

tired...

2005-05-13T00:06:00.000-07:00

haven been blogging for a while...think i'm too sick n tired of staring at the com in d office...i;m yearning to get out of there..i'm starting to count down....6 daes...6 more daes...

i haven got much inspiration to blog nowadays...

i think i'm old...

anyway,

happyfri13th...

DON'T LIKE YOU what ever reason you've got, i disagree

2005-04-27T08:39:00.000-07:00

Don't Like You (What The Hell Are We Supposed To Do)
Wannadies

What've we become, everything we had is gone
for a while I thought, we were best of friends
what's on my mind, I used to see you all the time
that's all gone, the fun is gone
You don't like me, I don't like you
what the hell are we supposed to do
who's to blame this time
I don't like you, you don't like me
whatever reason you've got, I disagree
who's to blame this time
what's there to say, don't know the rules, don't like the game
you're a fake I guess, so that's all the same
what's with my head, I'm tired, can't get out of bed
something's wrong, the fun is gone
You don't like me, I don't like you
what the hell are we supposed to do
who's to blame this time
I don't like you, you don't like me
whatever reason you've got, I disagree
who's to blame this time, who's to blame this time

UNEXPECTED eic

2005-04-10T00:00:00.000-07:00

hey blog i'm back.

in the midst of my sip now...i absolutely detest that place... i detest joining the rat race early in the morning...something i have to do in the near future...i feel so redundant over there..having to ask ard whether they hv any craps for me to take on...i hate facing the bloody flat screen for 9 hrs... i hate my job.

nonetheless..i thought i had a great nite out with the peeps from borders yest....went back wala last nite to catch shirley/shirlyn....finally got their band name rite...it's called UNEXPECTED....it's good as usual ...shirley/shirlyn changed her image though...she looked so much more ladylike now....so unlike her...anyway wendy koh was the guest yest.....sang along side with the band for 2 numbers....haven heard her for so long....however tawt her voice was a tat too high pitch at times....the guys from eic were good as well....but they only play on fri?

anyway i tink that's all for now...tdy at least...kinda tired tdy although i slept for .... 12hours? i tink it's the weather...it;s so hot that i wanna hide in my rm all day....i'm still in my room now n i'm gonna stay in it for another 7 more hours before i join in the fun with the office runners tmr.Night world.

[Does happiness in dream count?]

2005-03-24T09:47:00.000-08:00

only one

2005-03-24T09:46:00.000-08:00

empty

2005-03-24T09:44:00.001-08:00

traffic

2005-03-24T09:44:00.000-08:00

golden streaks

2005-03-24T09:43:00.000-08:00

curvy cabbie

2005-03-24T09:41:00.000-08:00

curvy cabbie

i love it when my dog whines

2005-03-24T01:30:00.000-08:00

something's not right bout p10 tonite..carrie's playing all the sappy songs..erm didn't they always proclaim that they dun play old songs?today feels like a sun..prolly coz i slept too much tdy...woke up at 1 plus in the afternoon..ate my lunch den went back to sleep again..wat a pig!but den was partly coz of the late nite the dae b4..reached home at 5 plus after a blasting nite out at zouk with the admers..yest nite was the biggest outing ever organised...abt 15 of us went..had fun with the gals..as usual phuture was packed to the brim..argh*hate all the squeezings,shovings,squashings...oh well ..wat more hv i gotta sae..anyway really can't wait for tmr...coz am going out with the gals to the beach tmr...can't wait..i'm feeling sunny alr...

[beaching works]

welcome to d world of black.

2005-03-21T01:34:00.000-08:00

i've dyed my hair black
jet black
for a change
i;m sick of d old brown hair
again
i tink i look nerdy
but i don;t care
coz i;ve nv cried over my hair anyway
i;m tempted to dye green over d ends
but i think my parents will either faint
or
chase me out to the streets to be with d greens
but i shall see
maybe i will
prolly not
i don;t noe
shall see how thing goes
but now
i tink i'm a true asian.

*laughs*

au revoir
rain

[ps:this is not a poem]

...

2005-03-20T10:04:00.000-08:00

sparks

i wish that i was a little livelier

2005-03-19T10:20:00.000-08:00

:: d red shoe ::

2005-03-19T10:18:00.000-08:00

:: my pink okapi ::

Sometimes the pursuit is more enjoyable than d catch..

2005-03-19T02:18:00.000-08:00

Nah nah..i'm not in love..happened to hear it over d radio n tawt it was quite true...to me at least..it happens all d time.. since young... i remembered how stubborn i was in d past when i wanted something, however when i'm about to obtain it, den i wun want it anymore..how strange uh?(**pause. dino's digging for gold in my room**scratch scratch scratch,yep she just walked out coz she can;t find it..oh well..toot toot..) i tink i'm stubborn by nature...

anyway tawt time passed quite slowly tdy...even audrey said so...i thought i did quite a lot of stuff tdy despite the fact that i left my house only at 2 plus..anyway met michy to go for the adidas sale at expo but the sale was...utterly disappointing.Dun bother checking it out if u intend to do so..the stuffs there were kinda obsolete i thought...michy bought a pair of mary janes..thought that was the only item in the entire hall that was worth buying..den had my eyebrows trimmed...shopped a bit...went to meet audrey..had a long dinner...shopped more...had dessert... wat?it's onli 9 plus?my legs were already numbed by then...i tink time pass faster when u;re doing projects,somehow or rather u often wish tt u had more time...shucks!do i really want time to pass quickly?nope.i don't..yeps, the submissions r finally over by now..finally..but come to tink of it,i thought that the sem was quite fruitful...got to learn lots of stuffs...had great project group members...but i miss working with vic...i tink she's d one of d few ppl in sch who can work on the same frequency as me...haha...on the other hand,my hols next week r kinda packed **sigh**but it will be a mixture of rest and fun i tink..

my itinerary..
mon:rest/charge my energy for the week
tue:sch/steamboat(hopefully)
wed:shunfu market/apply for final theory/acc michy/zouk
thur:rest?/beach?(i wanna kayak)
fri:high tea
sat:b-dae party/tuition/organ/wth.
sun:rest

shittified.my week's gone like tt?i wan more hols...stupid sip..eating into my hols...

well,that's all for tdy.

wat's next for tmr?

rest?

i hope.

let;s all rest well n enjoy d hols while we can

night fun.

good morning rest.

[i absolutely detest my bro. y? coz he eloped with my zen micro ]

Obsessed...

2005-03-13T03:00:00.001-08:00

feel breathe live PERSIS.

JoY.

2005-03-13T03:00:00.000-08:00

I'M A HAPPY GAL ...
yes i am... coz i finally got my zen micro...after so long ever since my previous hp turned its back on me n deprived me of my little enjoyment...eversince then, my bus/train/lrt/cab journey became so much so much monotonous..all i can do is either stare at ppl or let ppl stare back at me coz i stared...hahaha..but now things r finally back to norm...i wun be lonely anymore coz i've got music for company..anyway these two daes have realli been real tiring for me...i felt as though i've toured d whole of singapore...been going suntec since yest to check out d player...after enduring d traumatic bus ride, battling my way thru d crowd...d sales person had to tell me tt the players were out of stock...wat the...beep...but nonetheless... :) yep realli have to thank carrie for queueing up for me...geez..anyway, i finally caught closer with vic n lishan yest ...the plot was a tat too dry i tawt...i was kinda expecting something more..however some parts of d show seemed so vivid..about uncertainty,jealousy,infidelity & betrayal...it wasn't the normal kinda romance, rather it's abt relationships...but all i can say is tt NATALIE PORTMAN is realli superb...superbly good i must say...i didnt know that she was the gal who acted in the professional until recently..frankly speaking, i din thought that i wld enjoy tt kinda show during tt time...not forgetting that i was onli 12 yrs old?firstly..i watched it because my dad watched & coz natalie portman's acting was incredibly good for a 10yrs old gal?

all ritey.
that's all for tdy.
i'm too tired.
yes.
again.
nite ppl.nite.nite.

[cherished.]

A little something

2005-03-09T00:41:00.000-08:00

yipee...finally!french is officially off my mind now..had my french oral test tdy...phew!finally finally...been waiting for dis dae to come...hahaha...opps..tink i'm too high..on coke...haha...supposed to be doing my fam but i guess i need to be detached for a while...had wanted to change my music video but something's not rite...mite be blogger's fault but i suppose it's my com's..so be it uh...had a long long dae in sch but was fun...stayed back with fellow admers in d studio..haha...the laughters from diff parts of the studio seemed to drown the tension that everyone was having...(courtesy of betty)*sigh* it's d time of the yr again..but hang in there peeps...coz it's gonna be over before we know it..:)anyway dad went for the 2nd checkup at mount e tdy..tink there's a prob with d liver...*prays* hope tt nothing goes wrong when d results comes out on d 16th...*prays* ....all ritey i'm outta here...i'm tired..tink i'm gonna sleep early tdy..ya early?but how early can it be???????i need a break...can't wait to watch closer with vic on fri...no film fest on sat though coz d tics r out...beep beep...but i'm waiting...waiting waiting....

[ hope everyone's well ]

Only for a while...

2005-03-07T03:30:00.000-08:00

Happened to chance upon my friend's blog just now..read abt him talking abt life...den something dawned upon me... how do we define life when we have merely lived a life that is only worth 20 yrs? Den i realised i should stop talking bout it for a while, at least for now until i'm old eunff to tell my grandchildren that i've lived once...i've asked a qn a couple of mths back abt wat is defined as a life well lived...now i tink it's too cliche...dunch ya tink?wat may be good for me mite not be good for u...the word "life" is too over rated..to such a point that we've become too selfish..most importantly, at dis stage in life, we shd not keep harping on d past...harping on what u perceived is unhappy to you...harping on ppl's impression of you...why dun we make it simpler? why can't we just live for tdy? coz it's realli simpler dis way..that is to live for d moment.. i'm not implying that we shouldn't plan for tmr..but sometimes it's just a tat too tiring to keep thinking abt what u wanna pursue in d future...okie dok...i'm off now...gonna get back to fam...*nitez**

[ i'm a happy gal, let;s all be one ]

in School...

2005-02-22T16:37:00.000-08:00

i think i came school for nothing..after braving thru the haze n scorching sun...*wth* came school to hv consultation with teng hong..beep beep** he's damn slack i swear..i tawt he mite get angry coz we were supposed to show him our photos tdy...but NO!! he's not..he doesn't seemed to be too bothered though but he;s nice...haha..as usual..i can;t decide what to do for my di..d theme is fetish btw..i tink i'm doing on jeans n sneakers..for d moment at least...the sch seems a bit empty too..prolly coz everyone's at home slogging for their final projects...*sigh*i dunno what's gotten into me nowadays...i seem to hv lost my drive for sch...yes i tink i've slacked too much during d cny season...damn..maybe it's all tt glucose that's causing me to be lethargic..all ritey..even my braincells r not functioning now..i feel like sleeping...ciaoz..

[did i mention tt i hate french klass?]

Random Thoughts..

2005-02-16T02:22:00.000-08:00

Have u ever felt that you're living for others
for d world
for school
for those endless assignments
for survival,
but not yourself
i'm overwhelmed by fatigue
are you?
am i d only one out there?
please tell me i'm not
coz i dun wanna be d last one standing....

-rain-

ChampagneSupernova

2005-02-14T02:11:00.000-08:00

Champagne Supernova

How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hallFaster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find meCaught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find meCaught beneath the landslideIn a champagne supernovaA
champagne supernova in the sky
Wake up the dawn and ask her why A dreamer dreams, she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslideIn a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslideIn a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova'Cuz we don't believe
That they're gonna get away from the summer
But you and I will never die
The world's still spinning around we don't know why

nice lyrics..i like...bout how true is it?d song seems to depict our lives in tdy's fast paced society..how fast ppl changes n all..how d world is changing n we dun even realise it...speaking of which..i seriously think tt ppl r getting more n more insane or r they just plain bored?tell me!why do ppl wanna read xiaxue's blog?oh my..it's not that i'm avid fan of hers..but happened to chance upon her blog just now...wth...her counter reads 9** tdy
...do u literally mean 900 over ppl reads her blog daily?i'm surprised yet disappointed...surprised coz of her huge no. of fans...or prolly they were onli curious like me?but i doubt...the jumping nos. will onli seek to make her bolder...who on earth would proclaim tt they r goddamn beaUutiful....oh please..if she's goddamn beautiful den wat's ugly?why do such ppl exist?to think tt she even won d best asian blog?why shd she deserve tt title?Putting her as the winner would onli show the rest of the world how unrefined our society is...*infuriated*...i bet she gets tons n tons of hate mails everydae...she has absolutely no respect for ppl..so wat if they're born ugly n disgusting in her own words? i despise u, miss xx.

Enuff of that, anyway sch's reopening tmr...i guess i'm kinda recharged after a week's break...i had my share of sleep & fun tt's y...i tink i'm gonna be damn busy next week with 4 bdaes...dad's company dinner...shopping for prezzies...oh great!tt goes to show tt i'll hv no time for hw...*slaps*i shd cut down my time on tv...okie dok..i'm outta here...nighty nites...V HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAE Yto all d singletons,attached,married out there....

[Years had lapsed since we last met]

can somebody repair my com for me?

2005-02-11T04:56:00.000-08:00

there's something not right with my labtop...i tink it's sick..shittified..i need to find somebody who can repair it for me..anyway i tink i'm a clean freak just like my dad..i can nv forget my classmate's expression d first time she stepped into my rm...she was astonished at how neat my room was at that pt in time..ok...my classmates used to called me an angmoh lian back in jc..partly coz my blouse was always untucked in sch..my "rubbish" bag/pencil case...my messy hair..but when i'm back home..oh man...i'm a changed person...haha...oh great looking at d time at d bottom of d screen seemed to justify my claim as a nocturnal animal...daamn...it's alr 4.30 am...anyway just came back from rouge not long ago..paid 18 bucks to watch electrico...their performace was fantastic i tell u...but d progressive music later on sucks...prolly coz i wasn't into tt kinda stuff...but den dave was good...i tink he's one of the resident djs there...dj hook i suppose...yes i seriously tink i have a thing who ppl who plays/sings in a band regardless of their sexualities...*pause* but dun worry i'm 100% str8...i was quite mesmerised by dave tdy...told mardiah...n she said tt she's gonna tell him...shittified...i'm dead!anyway he sang oasis's champagne supernova tdy n not forgetting d rest of d nos. like i want u n runaway..n oso a few other new songs tt's gonna be in their new singles...ok.i have to confess tt although i'm a big fan of them but guess wat?i've yet to buy their album...i tink i hv dis problem of getting other cd rather than d one i was supposed to buy..tt's y...but i promise i shall get it soon den i can ask mardiah to help me get their autograph on my behalf..keke..on d other hand i tink i've created another record tdy...erm..ok..i took cab 5 times tdy...plus d entrance fee..meals n all=extremely broke...*sigh*...i'm still tinking of d pink adidas shoes..i tink i'm gonna survive on bread next week when sch reopens...plus it's huiying,carrie n cici's 21st bdae...*sigh sigh sigh*..i need my kai zai desperately!ritey.it's nearing 5...my hair is almost dry by now...gonna plop on my bed..sleeping with dino tonite...yeah!!!she's my pillow dog btw...okie dok ciao...night dave... ;)

Oh i'm still here...

2005-02-10T03:53:00.000-08:00

it's 3.30am in d morning...just finished finding pictures of napoleon...sigh...it's d 2nd dae of d new yr...lost bout 30 bucks at d gambling table at my dad's boss house just now...it's one of my family's yearly trip there..although we've known d peeps there for bout 8-9 yrs but we onli get to see them like 1-2 a yr?haha...but playing blackjack is like d new yr game we play every yr without fail...ever since we started from kids, d bets has been increasing every yr...from a meagre 50cents per game to bout 4 bucks tdy..it's per game excuse me...i guess lady luck wasn't on my side tdy...lost 20 in like less than 20 mins?hmm..tink i lost yest too..wth...anyway but it's not the money tt matters after all i guess..it's d spirit..everybody there was gamed enuff to continue with d game even at d expense of their depleting ang bao money..when we were younger, we kids hv no shame when we had to take out d money out of d redpackets when we r at d gambling table..haha...there's realli no point for us to hide in d toilet just to take out d money..everyone does it anyway..but it's onli behind closed doors..geez..however dis yr was a tat too bored..tink prolly angeline..pearlyn were not ard to play with...anyway i have to realli thank my mum for supplying me with those money ..it's not tt she encourages me to gamble but coz i was sitting beside her...so erm...haha...anyway ..will be going house visiting at maria n meiwen's house tmr...n rouge too...hope d dae will be greater tmr...

[bonne nuit.]

It's CNY!!

2005-02-08T01:06:00.000-08:00

I'm sleepy...but it's d eve of cny..have to help my folks out..*sigh*but i sleepy....slept at 4 plus last nite...coz had to acc my mum to d supermarket at 1.30am..yes...darn early rite?came back ard 2 plus ...tt's lk our yearly outing b4 cny...d good thing bout shopping at those wee hours is tt u dun get stared at for taking d yakult off d shelve n drinking it immediately...of course paying for it later...i just felt tt i needed that something to perk me up...since i can;t hv coffee..den why not yakult?geez...listening to class 95 makes me even wanna sleep more...but i lk d music n all...great music for a lazy tue noon...btw my dad is alr blasting new yr songs in d living rm...=0...i'm a nocturnal animal by nature...so i dun realli function in d dae...by observation, my frens said i tend to be more awake after 12...haha..i absolutely agree with them...btw did i mention tt i finally found my pink adidas shoes?hahhaa..i was so darn happy yest..managed to reserve it..i can onli get it after cny after my ang bao collection coz i'm temporarily broke...*sobs*....anyway HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR to all my frens...families...dogs n pals...

[iloveadidas]

2005-02-06T10:45:00.000-08:00

just d 3 of us...

Gosh..i didn't noe tt napoleon cld be so romantic..

2005-02-06T10:08:00.000-08:00

I awake full of you. Your image and the memory of last night's intoxicating pleasures has left no rest to my senses. Sweet, incomparable Josephine, what a strange effect you have on my heart. Are you angry? Do I see you sad? Are you worried? My soul breaks with grief, and there is no rest for your lover; but how much the more when I yield to this passion that rules me and drink a burning flame from your lips and your heart? Oh! This night has shown me that your portrait is not you! You leave at midday; in three hours I shall see you. Meanwhile, my sweet love, a thousand kisses; but do not give me any, for they set my blood on fire.B."

oh my!how how romantic..came to noe bout d great french conquerer during my jc daes...i onli remembered him for his strength in conquering other territories..never did i expect him to be so romantic..to think tt d woman he love was a divorcee with 2 kids..how complicated can history be...well i guess d best part of their romance was this --Napoleon had great dreams for their future, and his wedding present to Rose - whom he had renamed Josephine - was a gold medallion inscribed with the words "To Destiny."geez...nice one!anyway, was researcing for my upcoming french project on napoleon when i came across this...if i'm not wrong, i remembered tt josephine only married napoleon for his money...argh!to think tt he loved her so much n was so much willing to accept her for who she is...tink i'm gonna get d book bout them..it's called "desiree"..read d sypnosis on amazon..seems nice..they even had a movie on it!shall give michy a call tmr to help me check it out...well, tdy was relatively good..finally had my share of sleep...watched tv...helped out with d house chores..went out shopping with my folks..bought a pair of white shoes which i dun realli need but i had to coz i wanna match my yellowskirt for cny...tt's my dae!what's up for tmr?

[real player:symphonic overture]awww....i miss switzerland...tt's d song acjc played for d com there..*sigh*i miss those times...one of my greatest wish is to own a cottage hotel there when i retire..prolly 60?i wish...n i'll work towards it...haha....god bless me...night world.

I'm in love with d singer..

2005-02-05T10:15:00.000-08:00

i'm amazed with myself...amazed tt i'm still here blogging...haha...coz i'm waiting for my hair to dry again..geez...had a tiring dae tdy...as usual had to go for tuitions n all...all those math problems r driving me crazy...but the dae was survived by the wonderful performance by dis female singer at wala wala...tdy's my first time there..had long heard of tt place but was too lazy to go everytime coz it's realli realli out of the way..ok back to d performance..her singing was absolutely fantastic ...better than d singer at swing..gosh!even d guys there were impressed by her..i tink jojo mite like it there..shall ask them out one of these daes...she's called shirley i tink...another pal of my fren saes tt she's a butch...but i dun care!i'm in love with her!!all rite...prolly her singing n her style..she sang a couple of songs from d early nineties...something not of my era...but i like it...i love stuff from d early nineties..the movies...the songs...the actors...makes me wonder if i'm born in d rite yr..haha..anyway she sang dis song by jet too..can't remember d title though...but it goes like "are you gonna be my gal" (is tt d title?haha)den she paused n continued with "oei siao eh..wanna go steady or not?"hahaha was soooo funny i swear..she actually twisted d song without a pinch of sweat...gosh..she;'s amazing...maybe tt place will be my weekly haunt from now...allritey...i tink i had too much stella artois just now....feeling a little dizzy rite now..*ditzz***

[r u gonna be my gal?....sheesh...]nitey =)

haa...carries's latE!

2005-02-05T02:56:00.000-08:00

Geez...was at my com surfing aimlessly while waiting for carrie chong to come on air...but she onli came at bout 1230?all rite...i'm a fan of hers...listening to her voice makes me feel happy!yeah~anyway, had a realli bad day tdy...not because of unfortunate events but coz my migraine's back!shittified..i absolutely hate migraine...had it since i was in pri6..how early uh?tawt it was gone but it's been coming back since last week..i'll prolly need to see d doc again =( but i'm feeling a lot better now as compared to just now...saw vic n her fren while walking to muddy's to meet audrey..haha...tawt was quite funny though...rite vic?yep juz finished my manicure session ...keke...yesh*i noe i noe! i'm a tai tai in training...haha..n guess wat? i bought a green skirt tdy from ozoc which looked quite like d yellow skirt i bought from poa...shit...i couldn't help buying coz it was dirt cheap...but i noe my mum's gonna kill me...tink she quite like d blue zara top i bought though coz i told her tt i'll share it with her...haha..but well...just finished my 1 hr plus conversation with vic...haha..anyway hv ya ever felt like ur life's in a mess?when things dun seem to be going ur way?even ur r/s with ur frens? well, i did...i believe everyone has their share of woes, it just how u deal withit i supposed..i mean diff ppl can be handling them differently...as for me..i tink i hv my own ways of handling that is to live on my own...i call tt selfish but vic dun agree..prolly it's coz of d diff in our own personal values..each individual will no doubt have their own set of values but wat may appear to be rite to that individual mite be wrong to another...mr tong once said tt there's no way tt a robot cld live like human beings coz of the uniqueness of d value system instilled in us human..which i tawt was quite true...i mite hv neglected my frens at a certain pt of time but sorry pals...i onli needed tt time to be alone...to think of what i wanna do..to plan properly for d next moment at least...call me selfish or watever but i still care...tt's me for now..but what's me in d future?well it's up to me to decide to a certain extent but circumstance do change ppl...like what i've said "it's just d way of things,nothing stays d same"...tt's all for now...nitez... =)

[i'm blessed, hope u r too]

2005-02-04T11:00:00.000-08:00

leave caught in rain

2005-02-04T10:59:00.000-08:00

view from above...

My room smells of tonic...

2005-02-01T10:28:00.000-08:00

My mum just brought me chicken tonic soup..miam miam..haha..that's in french...anyway i hate french ! it's so damn hard i swear..opps..yep..tmr's wed...yes again..another french lesson...i'm not done with her hw though..i have no mood to complete them...prolly later...prolly tmr morning b4 class...argh...throughout my 16 yrs of education, i've never seen a teacher who has d audacity to eat a bun in front of d klass....my french lect's d 1st...bravo!hey it's not onli once but twice..or prolly more in time to come...haha..my goodness..isn't french all bout cultivating their culture?opps..doesn't apply to her coz she's a fake french lady..but jerome's cute though..keke..prolly my french will improve..*sigh* it's late now..but i still dun feel lk sleeping...maybe because of my wet hair...den again i'm feeling too feeble to reach for d hair dryer..geez...had a strange msg from dis guy in jc..telling me bout how he like man n boy too...funny uh..never even talk to him b4 in sch n yet he's telling me bout how much he likes d book too..haha..anyway d onli impression i had of him was his involvement with d sistahood...sob** i miss joyce,shan shan,ching,ce n all d band kakis..*sigh*anyway my jc daes was perhaps d most rebellious stage of my growing up phase..skipping sch was a breeze.. band was hell...but i miss d band peeps..mr lee n all..i guess being in tt band showed me how determination n unity could create miracles...just like how we emerged from a silver band to a gold one...it was not an ordinary gold award but it's tt sheer hardwork behind all those late nite practices tt made it happen...i miss playing orient express & persis... but i noe i can nv turn back time...all those r nothing but just memories now...i tawt i wld be a loner in band coz of my late entry but luckily i wasn't.. i had my bunch of wonderful pals who made my life there so enjoyable..peeps like yating,sharmaine,candisce,jiahui n d rest of the band members...of all d conductors i've seen, mr lee is really one of a kind...he taught us to how to put feelings into d song..how to play as one...n lastly how to live a life well-lived...

okie dok..tt's all folks...my hair is quite dry by now...i'll prolly drop by again tmr...bonne nuit

2005-02-01T10:23:00.000-08:00

mad bout chips..

2005-02-01T10:22:00.000-08:00

chun~haha

2005-02-01T10:21:00.001-08:00

how much?

2005-02-01T10:21:00.000-08:00

us both..

2005-02-01T10:20:00.000-08:00

opps..here's d big one..

damn com..

2005-01-29T09:57:00.000-08:00

OH GREAT!MY COM BLANKED OUT ON ME!! *SIGH* was blogging halfway den my screen suddenly blanked out..no wonder my bro said tt there was something wrong with it...shhh...in case it gets angry n blanks out on me again...*sorry com..but pls pls dun do tt to me again ya?esp when i'm doing my projects...(prays prays)*haha..anyway i shall try to recall what i was blabbering bout juz now...

oh well, was writing bout the "nana" song by alex toh..was at ktv with d peeps yest when all of us went mad..n decided to dedicate d "nana" song ..it goes something like" NANANANANANANANANANA..tuo tiao(strip) tuo tiao(strip)" oh my...was hilarious i swear...we can't read chi words for nuts but onli understood d part ...haha...so tt's y we call it d "nana"song...tink we fooled ard too much there that we had to dim d light in order to hide our faces...gosh..!when's d next one huh?haha...looking forward(part of my stress therapy)..yep, anyway had a tiring dae tdy,been on d move since 11 in d morning...had to travel between hougang-simei in a short span of time..den had project meeting with manda reg fam..*sigh*wished i had a car..prolly a peugeot?mazda? or a creamy beetle...*slaps* wake up jobi!!nah..prolly in 5 yrs time..haha..but for d time being..i will have to continue on mrting n busing...anyway i officially declared here tt "I HATE TAKING BUSv"...realli..i do...i hate d to stand while travelling across d expressway..i hate squeezing up d bus with those smelly kids..i hate the smell of gasoline on some buses...i hate the speed....i hate to wait for d bus under d blazing sun...i hate it when i'm late coz of the bus...ok..i hate taking buses...but i dun hate d bus drivers all rite?keke..well..actually i would prefer walking though..esp in d rain...tt's y i dun carry brollies ,...it's like d onli time u hv to urself admist d stress n all...it makes u tink of stuff outside sch which u nv had a chance to tink of...enuff said...tt's y i like rainy daes =)

All ritey...it's late already...*pissed*....have to wake up early tmr for organ lesson...can i call to say i'm sick?oh well...we shall see...prolly i will feel better tmr...hope i will n i hope u will too...nitezz....44posted up a few of d pics taken at alley's...courtesy of carrie m

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2005-01-23T02:21:00.000-08:00

in d train...
-rain-

2005-01-23T02:17:00.000-08:00

US 4
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2005-01-23T02:15:00.000-08:00

pouting gals..
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2005-01-23T02:13:00.000-08:00

*crazy*
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IT'S DINO'S BIRTHDAY!!!

2005-01-23T01:59:00.000-08:00

iT'S DINO'S B-DAE TDY!She's 2!!! mummy said tt she's going to get her a piece of cake...hope she likes it n i'm sure she will...geez..HAPPY BIRTHDAE PUI PUI!!!!

anyway i finally did something which i've been holding back for very long...i've finally pluck up my courage n msg her on friendster...frankly speaking i dun even noe wat actually happened to us back den...it wasn't the kinda long sort but was rather like a simple "hi" msg to ask her how's she's doing n all...hope she replies though...On the other hand..i've done something which i shouldn't even have done..I've looked at something which kinda reminded me of my stupidity at that point in time...argh..anyway it's all in d past now..thrown into d darkest part of my memory....

All tt aside..all i wanna sae now is that I HAD A GREAT NITE OUT WITH MY GIRLIES YEST!!IT WAS TRUELY TRUELY AWWEESSOOOMMMEEE! geez.. went out with the 3 babes last nite...initially was only carrie,cc n me...den woohoo...banged into jeslyn at centerpoint after our desperate search for cheap ktv session at some sleazy cuppage plaza... it was 10 plus during tt time alr...surprised uh...prolly it was destined for us all 4 to meet before d nite ends...anyway we headed down to alley bar to hv a drink instead..d place was all rite..but d chips were good..haha...n cc even tawt tt d waiter was quite cute..hahahaha..(ps:waiter, if u r reading dis, pls drop me a msg so i can pass u her no. but ah long will kill me...hahahahaa) yep the nite at alley was actually d second part of our "reminising session" of our sch daes in sac..geez..i miss those times..being in d notorious class of 1/8 was sure fun..i remembered when we were in sec 1, our klass actually had d audacity to petition against dis teacher whom we din like & can't teach of course...haha...we even had dis math teacher mr tan who looked as though he had a missing tooth in his front row of teeth..but tt's actually his decayed baby tooth which he left it there so tt he cn get into the guiness for having d oldest baby tooth...KUDOS TO U!MR TAN! haha..he can't teach for nuts..there was dis time when i guess our klass was too noisy as usual while doing his math assignment afterwhich he forced us to hand them up ...n the next moment i remembered was tt d whole klass was laughing str8 in his face when he attempted to tear our assignment in front of our klass...awww..i wish i cld turn back time n stay there forever even at d expense of not growing up...

Yep, posted a few pics of us at modestoes on xmas eve...still as crazy as ever even though we've all grown up....okie dok...tt's all for nw, gonna go to my mum's. enJOY d sunday.

<<Happy b-dae dino>>

2005-01-20T23:56:00.000-08:00

*fling*
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2005-01-20T23:55:00.001-08:00

dazed...
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2005-01-20T23:55:00.000-08:00

poopooing
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2005-01-20T23:42:00.000-08:00

it's a monday morning..
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I'M BACK!!

2005-01-20T15:38:00.000-08:00

I'M BACK!!Back from xanga..tawt it was easier there but nope..tink it's easier here..haha...

it's d start of the hols & here i am sitting in the comfort of my little living room, typing my time away. I'M BORED!!ok...it's partially my fault..it was me who wanted to stay at home to accompany my lonely dog n my dad...i feel obliged to do so since my bro is alwaz out n mum is alwaz working...can some kind soul pls knock some sense into my mum n tell her tt nobody works 24/7 a week...haha...

i tink i'm a GLUTTON! i cook myself scramble eggs the moment i woke up after cleaning up of course...n after that i made mysef cereals...haha..n i'm hungry now...feel like eating KFC coz the brochure is in front of me..haha...opps...my neighbour from downstairs is up looking for his cat again..argh..y can't they just shut their doors when the cats r in d house...anyway they've just lost one of the black one...haha...n their missing notice near the lift reads "cat jumped down from 3rd floor"..wat the...haha...anyway i hate cats...so i shan't go any further...

anyway that's all for now folks...i'm going get myself some food..*sigh*

2004-07-03T09:44:00.000-07:00

colors of life

It's just the way of things. Nothing stays the same.

2004-07-03T08:11:00.000-07:00

Know it's depressing to state that line in my first posting..but don't u tink tt line realli depicts reality..how true is it?people changes..so do i...but i shall try my best not to conform to d realms of life..reality has nevertheless shape humanity into a selfish form of existence..how nice would it be if the world was "selfless"...but that would never happen..it's "world"..but i would seriously be contented if all my friends would stay that way...well, i've always wanted an avenue whereby i can write wat i feel..guess blogging would be juz rite for me..yep..cheers...hope i have the time!